what the fuck is up with myspace? that shit is messing up on me all the time. i guess i'll have to wait until tomorrow. whatever. not feeling to good right now. lots of things going through my head right now. not feeling too good about any of it. we'll see how that goes. much love,

-Josh

pretty sweet day so far. went out and filled out like 5 job apps. and then played some video games. and now my sister is at my house now. that's cool because i havent seen her since like christmas, or winter drumline season, or something like that. well, just thought i'd let you guys know that. much love,

-Josh

P.S. i think i may actually be working on my friggin myspace. have one, just dont use it. so look for me during the week.

so... i'm 17 now. i dont feel that excited. most people usually are on their birthday. but now me. it's not that big a deal to me. besides the fact that in exactly one year i AM going to buy a pack of cigaretts and some porn, just because i'll be able to. that's really it. i dont really care that i'm getting older. it's nothing special to me other than i made it through another year without being killed. i dunno. should i be excited? should i care? should i do just like a lot of other people and do something for my birthday? i guess so. but that's probably not going to happen. the one thing i wanted to do for my birthday is deffinitely NOT going to happen. but that's not why i dont care. that's just why i'm not doing anything else for my birthday. well, that's it for now. much love,

-Josh

 WOOHOO!!!!!!!! me and raygene have officially been together for two years. i'm so happy right now you guys have no idea. i would go into more detail about how i'm feeling right now, but there arent enough adjectives in the dictionary. now, in other news.FUCKING SHIT!!!!!!! real sit-ups are harder than i remember. yes i said sit-ups not crunches. i could do crunches for days. but damn i havent done a single real sit-up since jr. high. and back then i could do 50 in a minute. you know how many i did in a minute today? well let me tell you, i didnt make it to a minute. i did 26 in 40 seconds. my lower abs suck. gotta work on that. well now i have something to keep me occupied now. i'm gonna keep working on it until i can do at least 100 in 2 minutes. oh and in case you didnt get the hint, i started working out again. i figured a month and a half off was enough. well gotta go. much love,

-Josh

well, my brother is fine. his car, a little jacked but not so bad. gonna see how that works out. but anyway. i couldnt be any happier yesterday. i finally got to see raygene. and let me tell you. i could not stop smiling. and everyone around me said that i didnt stop smiling. she showed up to band practice and made me forget my drill and my music. but damn was i happy. i still am happy although i miss her already. well that's ok because i might be able to see her next weekend and hang out over on base in lemoore. i cant forget my ID this time though. i didnt know i needed it and i got pretty scared when the guys with the shotguns were shining the flashlight in the backseat. oh well, they still let me on base. i met some of raygene's friends too. they're pretty cool. well, gotta go. feelin' way better. much love,

-Josh